Friday, September 27, 2013

Work, Gym, and Jumping 101

All work and no play makes me really really depressed. But getting back on my feet lately has been easier. I've decided that there are definitely some things I need to get taken care of when it comes to myself and my mental self. My coping skills are basically non-existent so dealing with things have always been an issue especially in the mental stability department. Long story short, I'm just as unstable as the next person. Growing up I wasn't really offered things like meds and doctors, I kind of just had to figure it out myself which is why Lucky was so important to me. He was my constant. Now that Brantley is in shape and we're having an amazing time together, I thought maybe it would help. But instead I think I've finally broken and I've fought long and hard alone and definitely need to get it together. One of my biggest things has always been my self-image and a couple of years ago between work and school I was able to gym it plus take care of 10-20 horses a day. I was in the best shape of my life and riding non-stop and felt AMAZING. I decided the other day that it was time to get back there so I got a gym membership. *crosses fingers* I hope I can stick with it, especially now that I have a friend to hold me accountable for it. Also, in a discussion with a very close friend I decided professional help is in my future. I'm still not crazy about the meds thing but if talking to someone could better me and help me with my relationship with Brantley... I'm in.

ANYWAY! Enough about me, Brantley has decided jumping is definitely in his future. As in, the next couple of weeks. I have videos and pictures Kate took to post and of Emma riding him the other day. Poles were a breeze, "circle of death/hell" whatever she called it... We'll work on it. He was really good at listening and letting me set his pace and his steps, but we really need to get on board with this bit thing. The other day I rode and I just asked way too much from him so today I took a step back and went step by step. Can't get ahead of myself with him, no matter how excited I get or how well he is doing. That's all I need is to rush him and set him back instead of set him up for success. We'll get there, maybe we'll take the eventing world by storm next year... As total noobs... We both need a good trail ride.

Rode Pretty today... She was a tool. But that's what I love about her.

I think that's it. I'll post pictures. Trail ride next Sunday at the park. I even think I have a ride...

And October is coming and PA is getting closer and closer.

Did I mention the Equine Affaire in November?

I love this job.

5 Comments:

At September 27, 2013 at 7:19 PM , Blogger L.Williams said...

You don't have to take meds if you don't want to but I do recommend a therapist for times when you need a bit more help then a horse can give. Been there, done that, no shame in it. Big hugs.

 
At September 28, 2013 at 1:46 AM , Blogger Kitty Kat said...

^ Agree, Do the therapist for sure, sooo many of us have. Meds don't have to be seen as permanent, just something to help get yourself grounded. But that's what therapists can help with deciding if necessary. Gym will help, endorphs in are good. Sounds like good stuff in the future.

 
At September 28, 2013 at 12:49 PM , Blogger Madeline C. said...

I used to see someone when I was in middle school for a stupid bullying incident (wasn't stupid then) and they told my parents they were wasting their money so they stopped... Worst mistake EVER!

 
At September 28, 2013 at 12:50 PM , Blogger Madeline C. said...

The gym is definitely helping, plus having a friend to be there with me and laugh about stuff. And I just started riding the Roley Poley Arab again to give me and extra boost and keep me busy. What I haven't done is start drinking again! After LB died I was a mess and I've got that on my brain too.

 
At September 28, 2013 at 3:16 PM , Blogger Kate said...

I'm glad you're on the mend and you know you have a big support network if/when you need us!

 

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Work, Gym, and Jumping 101

All work and no play makes me really really depressed. But getting back on my feet lately has been easier. I've decided that there are definitely some things I need to get taken care of when it comes to myself and my mental self. My coping skills are basically non-existent so dealing with things have always been an issue especially in the mental stability department. Long story short, I'm just as unstable as the next person. Growing up I wasn't really offered things like meds and doctors, I kind of just had to figure it out myself which is why Lucky was so important to me. He was my constant. Now that Brantley is in shape and we're having an amazing time together, I thought maybe it would help. But instead I think I've finally broken and I've fought long and hard alone and definitely need to get it together. One of my biggest things has always been my self-image and a couple of years ago between work and school I was able to gym it plus take care of 10-20 horses a day. I was in the best shape of my life and riding non-stop and felt AMAZING. I decided the other day that it was time to get back there so I got a gym membership. *crosses fingers* I hope I can stick with it, especially now that I have a friend to hold me accountable for it. Also, in a discussion with a very close friend I decided professional help is in my future. I'm still not crazy about the meds thing but if talking to someone could better me and help me with my relationship with Brantley... I'm in.

ANYWAY! Enough about me, Brantley has decided jumping is definitely in his future. As in, the next couple of weeks. I have videos and pictures Kate took to post and of Emma riding him the other day. Poles were a breeze, "circle of death/hell" whatever she called it... We'll work on it. He was really good at listening and letting me set his pace and his steps, but we really need to get on board with this bit thing. The other day I rode and I just asked way too much from him so today I took a step back and went step by step. Can't get ahead of myself with him, no matter how excited I get or how well he is doing. That's all I need is to rush him and set him back instead of set him up for success. We'll get there, maybe we'll take the eventing world by storm next year... As total noobs... We both need a good trail ride.

Rode Pretty today... She was a tool. But that's what I love about her.

I think that's it. I'll post pictures. Trail ride next Sunday at the park. I even think I have a ride...

And October is coming and PA is getting closer and closer.

Did I mention the Equine Affaire in November?

I love this job.