Get 'r Done
So well... We jumped today. No big deal right?
WRONG!
AAAAHHHHHH!!!!!
:LKSDJF:OIN:VIRJ:WEIJ:RO!@&*(#P(!*@#PNS:AN:LKJA:SKLDJ:OI:WENV:KDJF!!!!!!!!
And that is how I feel. I can't even tell you. No... I did not cry, which is a thing I do when B and I do something. But I just couldn't stop smiling.
We had an awesome ride outside with A, K, and P. Lucy was a doll! Merlot was perfect as always. And Brantley, first time in a while we rode outside, awesome! We had a great, long, low trot. Worked on getting him collected a little bit (by the way, loving my SmartPak Rockin' SP reins), then picked up a canter. Perfect? Yes, perfect! Kept him collected and moving forward. A hopped on Lucy and I sat and talked with P to show her all of Brantley's new things that he does like letting me touch his butt and jumping down and up the side of the ring. We popped over the single log jump in the XC course at the walk and I jokingly walked over to one of the harder jumps. I've sent B over every jump (except the coupe) from the ground and he'd jump it at a stand still if I asked. As I said, we joked about going over it and well, like everything else I do with B... I usually do it.
Took a couple of tries because I kept telling him "go go go, NO!" just by my body posture. The girls kept telling me "look up!" "just jump it" and I told myself it but I was scared. I don't think I've ever jumped that high or at least in the past 8 years... And when I did it was on a dead broke lesson horse. Here's my 7 year old QH, only been under saddle how long? Just learning to go straight?
He took such good care of me. I was scared out of my mind when he first went over it. The look on my face? Heart was going to come out of my mouth. It was pounding so hard I swear you could see my pulse from the ground.
He looks so calm and cool like, "I got this." Me? Not so much. I think it was more of an excited "OH MY GOD THIS IS HAPPENING!" Panic. We went over a second time and K missed it on camera but there was a squeal that escaped from my mouth. Sad that K and P missed it, they asked me to do it again. Still as nervous as before but this time I asked him to pick up a bit of a quiet jog going over it.
This is what we got!
Cloud 9? Fuck yes! Excuse my language but like seriously? I just took a jump, a big jump, on a horse I've never jumped. We've done ground poles, some things out on the trail, the side of the ring, maybe a trot over a little cross-rail... But this, this was huge... He does make it look tiny though.
So yeah, we jumped, I'm a happy camper. Schooling show beginning of December...
Eventing in the Spring. We got this.
I finally gave myself a break this past week. I really needed it especially because the hostility wasn't really going away. A few friends from work told me I needed to go out, so of course we ended up at my favorite karaoke place. Obviously I've been there before, hence I'm behind the bar with my favorite bartender in the back. We had a blast, sung some songs, danced the night away.
The whole night plus the ride I had with N and K really helped put things in perspective and made me feel a lot better about the issues I had over the weekend. We grow up and grow out of friends, I understand that. It's funny how the people who have known you for a less amount of time know you better as a person or at least the person you have become and want to be. I'm finally in a place in my life that I don't need people to tell me what to do or what I should be doing. I need those people in my life to just live it with me day by day and support me when needed and tell me to get over it when I need to let it go. I don't think I've ever had this much fun and still get all my work done.
I don't think any of my friends will every know how much I really appreciate them. <3